So tonight I took down the ultrasound picture of my second little one. It's the only picture we have of either our first two little ones, so it's pretty special to me. But we have a new little one on the way and a brand new picture of her/him.
I had thought about taking that picture down for awhile and putting it away in my little guy's memory box, after all, it has been over seven months (how is that possible?) that we learned he had died. But I liked it there. It was really hard for me to move those two little magnets.
It hurt a lot.
A lot. I'm still surprised at the things that creep up on me.
(((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteI know exactly what you mean. It was SO hard for me to change my FB profile pic from a photo of Madelyn's name, to an u/s pic of this baby. But I felt like I needed to, like this baby deserved for me to do that. It's amazing how hard the seemingly small things can be. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteAw, I can imagine how difficult that was. I have a memory box for mine, too. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteI know it can be so difficult. I cried my eyes out during worship on Sunday for my precious Wesley. All the while precious Millie was dancing in my womb. One child cannot replace another.
ReplyDeleteLots of hugs as you make these steps...
ReplyDeleteI can't do it yet...I still have both of their little 8-cell transfer pictures on the refrigerator and just can't get there yet. It IS very hard and hurts a lot to just think about.
ReplyDeleteLots of love friend!!!